אתם יכולים בבקשה לקרוא משהו שכתבתי ולתת משוב?

תודה לעונים.
Everyone tells me how being broken-hearted sucks and how much it hurts; but I think Id prefer to feel the pain than to feel numb and empty all the time. I write this shit like it means something to me, just to let you in, it doesnt. Ive never been in love or heartbroken; hell, Ive never even kissed someone, but for some reason I write things that can make you cry if you understand the feeling. Is it normal? I write it and feel nothing Sometimes I can feel proud of myself for writing that but most of the time I just feel like Im nothing, just a sad little ghost, trying to come out of the darkness that is my existence.

And they keep sending me texts, all about her. Like I dont know shes gone. I can feel it in every bone I have, in every breath I take. But all I do is look at her grave, with one tear rolling down my cheek. She was my everything, and she disappeared like she was never even here.
And they keep giving me that sad look; like I dont know my whole world just crashed, and I have no one left. Like Im all alone again, and the rain begins to fall, and the darkness is all around me; eating me alive.
And maybe the next time itll be my grave someone will cry on.


I should be happy, but I feel like a toxic person. Why is it so hard for me to believe my writing is good? I mean, I ask random people and my friends, they all tell me its great and that Ill probably go on and actually do something with my talent ; but every time I ask someone to read some of my texts I feel like an attention seeking b***h. Why is it so hard for me to believe Im good at something? Why is it so hard for me to see that Im not a failure? Is it all in my head?